Broken

I'd like to fall asleep
And breath with you
Be proud of me for once
For the things I do
When it all comes around
What will they say
I'd like to give you something
That you can take away
I did it for you
I did it for me
I did it for anyone listening
I'd like to stay awake
And see it through
Finally change the way
That I talk to you
Why can't I say those things
That are in my head
Allow that best of me
To show instead
I did it for us
I did it for nothing else
I did it to save myself
From everything.

Day in the Life

i woke up this time didn't sleep for very long
my dear mr. pillowcase..
i pour a cup of clouds and i drink my inspiration and i can
taste the day comin' on comin' on...
and i throw my imagination over my shoulder
and i tear myself off the page and i try to become real again...
another day in the life ,another day and i'm here again
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again
j.p.'s launched herself again don't know when she's comin' back
but i see her outline in chalk.
and dog is chasing her tail again she thinks she found her
look alike, run in circles run in circles..
and i keep looking inbetween the headlightsand
c's been screaming at the ceiling again cause that's where god is...
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again..

Fall into You

I had stumbled into something i think it must be you
didn't have the right to feel good
I believed that , that was true
where I came from didn't matter you said
we all lived with shame
no one seemed to recognize me but you, you knew my name
I could whistle in the darkness to keep the ghosts away
I'm afraid of letting go, but some things have to change
when I can't take what it gives, but it's too late to return
you hold me til the love comes through til I fall into you...
my words are deeper than my thoughts you know
sometimes I try too hard
to say the simple truth to you, gets stuck inside my heart
when I can't risk the opening up
cause I fear it may be empty
you fill me up with the trust that if i fall you'd always catch me
I could lose myself in silence, forget about the noise
but you'd be there at the speed of sound
to give me back my voice.
you'd love me til I loved myself til I'd fall into you
when I can't climb cause faith's too high, I fall into you
when I'm sinking in the precious blue, I fall into you
I had stumbled into something, I think it must be you....

Girl in the Attic

She sits and silently she watches
The world outside her windows pane
She waits forever hoping something good is gonna happen
But will it ever change
She wonders
Her shoes are worn out like her dreams
Her memories faded like the holes in her jeans
One more casualty of life has died
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh poor girl
She's counting cracks now in the walls
She might fall through one but she'd go unnoticed
Her tears have sunk beneath the wooden floor
Just like her chair her thoughts rock back and forth
One more casualty of life has died
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh dear girl
One more casualty of love just cried
Another day inside
The Attic....
She looks right through me
As if my heart were made of glass
The fires burning One match ignited Life's a gas
But flames can't reach her
She turns to ice in her own world
Ashes to ashes
Say a prayer Do you care
For this trap door girl
One more casualty of love has cried
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh poor girl
One more casualty of love just cried
Another day inside
The Attic....Oh dear girl

Give it Back

I am clenching both my fists waving them to heaven
Asking for forgiveness somehow for the wasteful things I've given
I am at high risk now my heart is running empty
On the way to find myself I've hit one dead end
too many too many too many,
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free ,but I'm not
All these things I have given to you
If you do not want it, give it back.
Everything that is given does not come without a price
I risked drowning my sanity just to swim in paradise
Bring me back my dignity give me back my memories
So I can gather them myself so I can save the rest of me
the rest of me the best of me.
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free , but I'm not
All these things I have given to you
If you do not want it give it back
I am shouting here I am so that you can find me
I am cutting through this rope do you think you can bind me
Just because I loved you once nothing is forever
You're the one who taught me that when we were still together
together were not together.
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free, but I'm not
All these things I have given to you all
If you do not want it, please
Give it back, give it back

Hold My Breath

no one can tell me how to do this thing
i have to learn to trust in providence, if nothing else
it may be mighty in my mind that's all
but i cant help the tendency to dream,beneath the dream
when you're in my head i hold my breath
til there's nothing left i hold my breath
nothing can move me, if i stay real still
i thought i'd be here til the sky came down
now look it's all around
and i know it may be safe to stay hidden away
nobody hides better than i do, except maybe you
when you're in my head i hold my breath
til there's nothing left i hold my breath

Island

here comes the dream shaver, he always likes to take a little
off the top.
maybe you'd be better off,cutting back on your promises...
oh i am east of eden..so far ..so hidden..
i am just loneliness...
i am close to sinking, i am above water now...
take me back,don't take me back, don't take me back...
go away now....

Love is Love

I saw it in the streets I saw nothing but their faces
everyone looks like someone else to me
the sky held the moon.. the sea kissed the sand
why can't we all be that way, just letting it in
and I wonder does the boat rock the water
or did the water rock the boat side to side?
does it even really matter, if we all fall off this time?
tales of other days, time is time and time does slip away , oh yes it does
there are better days this won't go away, all of us the same
love is love...
and god said let there be light
so if I'm gonna love you better wear a number 19, if i don't want to burn tonight.
maybe if I count to ten, we'll get to start again
and all the kings horses and all the kings men will leave us alone this time
well if we're all created by the same pen why are your words different then mine
so what if I use crayon to sign my name on that fine line.
can't let in the anger, but I can't look away
all of us the same oh yes we are
can't we stand together your hand in my hand
and we'll be holding back the shame
love is love
I saw it in the streets I saw nothing but their faces...

Little Birds

Wheat circles and landing gear... don't look now the little birds are already here...
i don't believe in wreckage, i don't believe in zen
i don't believe in jesus well, i've never met the man
i don't believe in salvage, i don't believe in forgiveness
i don't believe that you or i are ever gonna forget this
i don't believe in secrets, i don't believe in pride
i don't believe in anything oh, faith is suicide
i don't believe in boundaries . it's a harmless little cage
i don't believe in weakness it only shields against the rage
i don't believe in sacrifice it's the innocence of blame
i don't believe the day you left and i can't believe you came..
i wanted you.. i wanted them...i wanted us... i wanted me......
i don't believe in solitude, i don't believe in silence
i don't believe in poetry all the demons of awareness
i don't believe in prophecy, i don't believe in pressure
i don't believe in blindfolds they keep on bringing us together
i don't believe in confession i don't believe in weapons
i don't believe in tuesday so i don't believe in wednsday
i don't believe in rituals a rhythmic little cage
i don't believe in exteriors it's temptation's face
i don't believe in clarity... i don't believe in infinity
i don't believe i want to know the day that you forgot me
i wanted you...i wanted them...i wanted us...i wanted me...

Heavy

Sorrow wept, thick with desire that splintered and frayed
And Heaven fell, now all of her stars have hidden away

Hauling up that stone
it's just too heavy
raising my voice
But it's too heavy
I draw some breath
It's just so heavy
A chance to sleep
it's just so heavy

Happiness broke, under the spell of silence' sweet kiss
And Loneliness
Sits in her room, talking to ghosts

Dragging one more load
It's just too heavy
Lifting my head
It's way too heavy
Laid in your bed
It felt so heavy
I want to sleep
But I'm too heavy

Bulldozer

How are you really
My beautiful wrecking ball
Is this all that is left of us

You’re my sweet hand grenade
Set to go off
I put you there in the deep of my heart

Why should I love You
Why should I love You
Why should I love You
The way that I do

I’m not so happy now
With All this debris
You stood and watched
As it came down on me

So why did we build this love
Or was it a dream?
You were the end to most everything

Why should I love you
Why should I love you
Why should I love you
The way that I do

But it’s alright
It’s alright
It’s alright…
With me…

Camouflage

The devil wore a veil to cover up his face
He danced inside your kiss
It was his hiding place
I can visualize the windmills stirring up the dust
Walking in my sleep
The truth escapes from us
I want to know who you really are
You breathed life into this secret world
A private moment incognito
You signed Anonymous in invisible ink
Love is divine but not immortal
I want to know who you really are

If Not

if not now, when
if not now, when

if not for me, why
if not for me, why
if not then, why

I Shudder for the Clouds Have Tempted Madness

I have kissed the mouth of silence
In the midst of my desire
And your love is veiled in shadow
Stretched across a trembling sky

I shudder for the clouds have tempted madness
Only darkness, without you
Without you, without you…

In this storm , too obscure to trace.
Growing dimmer is your face
I am calling out for blue sky
But we pale ,eclipse and fade

I shudder for the clouds have tempted madness
Now there’s sadness, without you
Without you, without you.

I Am Lovely

Certain, So certain, certain
It’s a wonderful likeness
Crazy, So crazy, so crazy
It’s an exquisite kiss.

And I’m afraid that this is real
I’m afraid that this is real
There is no one else like me.

Love me. Just love me, love me
I promise god won’t be watching
Wicked, So wicked, too wicked
This beauty, it’s deadly

And I can’t tear myself away
I can’t tear myself away
I can’t tear myself away.

Hunting Down the Ceremony

I wonder where you go to bleed
When you're hiding your pain from me

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I'll just let you go
I'll let you go

I know you've been held by fear
Well you've been held by me too

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I'll just let you go
I'll let you go

Hunting down the ceremony
Looking for those things you said
God get me back to safety
From the storm that's in my head

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I should let you go
I'll let you go
I'll let you go

How the Devil Falls in Love

This is how the devil falls
This is how he falls in love
The devil falls in love you see
Oh Victorine, oh Victorine,
You buried me, alive

I always want what I can’t have
What I can’t have is killing me
It’s killing me why can’t you see
Oh Victorine, my Victorine
You’ve buried me alive

The plenty room has opened wide
It’s opened wide, so step inside
You step inside the devil’s pride
Oh Victorine, Sweet Victorine
You’ve buried me, alive

Well I can’t breathe without you here
It’s no good without you here
I don’t know why you’re not here…

Amnesty

I wanted Sanity
I wanted Solitude
I wanted Sympathy
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
Nothing more nothing less nothing less.

I needed Honesty
I need Integrity
I need your Amnesty
I needed peace in my heart, in my heart
I needed peace in my heart in my heart
In need peace in my heart in my heart
Nothing less Nothing less than all of this.

I dreamt of Clarity
A dream that Dug in deep
I dreamt of my release
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
Nothing less Nothing less than all of it!

Poison in the Well

It’s an inner situation
It’s a private kind of hell
And no matter how I love you
You keep poisoning the well

You keep setting things on fire
Just to try and make you feel
You keep setting things on fire
It’s the only way you feel

It’s not like steam that turns to vapor
It always fails to become a smile
You know it may not be that tragic
You ought to have kept your soul alive

I would say that you’re a liar
When I watch you disappear
Like you’re falling down the rabbit hole
And you’ve left me standing here

And you’ve thrown yourself in exile
And you swear your heart won’t mend
You’re the only living victim
And it’s heaven all over again

You keep drowning in this maelstrom
You keep opening your mouth
You keep swallowing poison
Til there’s nothing coming out!

It’s an inner situation…

Queer

i know you’re there i know you’re in there

i thought i heard you breath out loud

it kiss me up just like quicksilver

the beads are falling from my mouth


i’ve been here i’ve been waiting for something

wouldn’t you know that life’s a queer

loving me on both sides of the daybreak

and spill me out as night draws near


i know you’ve thoughts i own your secrets

i’ve painted faces on your tears

and little children play inside you

tossing crumbs to feed your fears..


i’ve been here i’ve been waiting forever

i’ve always known that i’m so queer

loving you on both sides of the heartache

i’d swallow anything my dear..

i’m so queer...so queer..

Vacant Little Stare

Faintly, I see ,a glimpse of far away
The space behind her eyes
What lies below that kiss
What exists, is it madness?

She’s vacant, she’s vacant she’s missing
She’s not there
She’s vacant, she’s vacant, she’s vanishing
Right before my eyes…

Sometimes I feel a shiver
Do I risk to deliver her
From her expressionless temple

She’s vacant, she’s vacant she’s empty
She’s not there
She’s vacant, she’s vacant, she’s fading away
Right before my eyes…

Sometimes I feel a shiver...

Venus in Chains

oh it won’t be long now it won’t be long now
ooh i hear her falling from the sky
these little conversations are gonna kill me til i die

and venus ran all the way home
venus is no beauty if you’ve got her in chains

all she has to do is breath now
all she has to do is be her
she could never really hold you she has no arms
just remember venus turned into the chicken lady
when she tried to poison hans

and venus is far far away
and she is no good to you if you’ve got her in chains

Fable Honey

Ooh I knew you, before
I loved you
Oh I saw your face
Way before all of this.

One moment in time
One moment in time

Ooh, I saw right through, the fevered light.
How sweet of you
To get it right
Oh, I tasted you, A vital kiss
How true love fell upon my lips

One moment in time
One moment in time

You were pouring honey in my glass
You were pouring honey in my glass

You were pouring honey in my glass
I drank it up so it would last
And so I drowned my heart in amber
Lying still in there forever
Stuck inside, so we’ll remember
How it felt going down together
Suspended in our final moment.

Of Love and Ether

We’ll name it silver
Paint it gold
Within our hearts
Till we grow old
And reach for things for ponders sake
And watch how delicate it breaks
A quiet leap across my knee
A metaphor for you and me
To invent dreams so easily
It’s the same for love and ether

It burns it shines, a valentine
It glows no inhibition
A pleasant kind of oxygen
A clear and distant sky
But all this air behind the clouds
That links us like the atom
Goes up in smoke
The flames we stoke
It’s the same for love and ether

It’s shape it’s form
Is finely worn
To touch between sensations
It constitutes the light that roams
An anesthetic pleasure
And dare a bit of it gets in
It’ll occupy for certain
So hold your breath
It’s flammable
The same for love and ether…

Cellophane

I thought I saw your face today
A prelude to a trace of you
Like little paper lanterns in a row
You barely see the light poke through

Hinting like some glass that hints
At pieces of the little things
A camouflage of innocence
Sheltering white elephants that were
Driven out to sea. Driven out to sea

It’s just like us to hide away
Underneath~ CELLOPHANE
It’s just like us to hide away
Underneath~ our CELLOPHANE

Sometimes I see you when I’m sleeping
In the house of statues that we built
I hold a question in my one hand
And wave goodbye with the other

We are all so perfect in our silent ambiguity
Reflected back just like the sky
I see you looking back at me and
Crying, crying…

We always have to hide ourselves
Underneath~ CELLOPHANE
We always have to hide ourselves
Underneath~ our CELLOPHANE

We’re really naked after all.